Someone to Cry With

Someone to Cry With

Unexpected, unexpressed emotions
pour forth from previously protected places.
Though unbidden, they must be allowed to flow.
Unfamiliar in their feel,
a product of the newness,
they scour, cleanse, and vitalize.
Lovely little one needs these releases
while she learns not to lug any more,
as does this vibrant, healing me.
But those moments can be
quite a challenge,
 for now.
When the waves crest,
there’s a craving for
someone to cry with,
 who loves me just as I am,
 won’t push me away
for feeling the deep.
Though there’s been no one
in that particular track
for quite some time,
in truth, it’s empty,
but not.

I climb a gentle hill,
breathe deep the woodsy air,
listen to the whispers of the wind.
Suddenly the truth washes through me.
I’m never really alone,
though loneliness still visits.
It is safe to freely feel
whatever I do in the moments of my life.
Anyone who judges that is wrong,
not me.
I can be my own
someone to cry with
as more and more I internalize
all that surfaces
from dropping in.

Sarah Carlson

January 9, 2019