There is a Spot For Me

There is a Spot For Me

As the New Year approaches
I again find myself missing you,
deeply and lovingly.
Gentle recollections wash
sweetly around and through as
I remember the sensations of
our little family living and
growing in this home.
This was our spot, together.
Through healing, I have recognized
 that my broken, frozen places
were already there.
But during those married
and family years,
I felt like I belonged,
I had a spot.
Our togetherness and shared love
enabled my light to be quite bright.
The years since your death
have led me in, through,
below, and beyond.
I’m somewhat in awe that,
in choosing to explore and heal,
I’ve discovered a radiance
that is bright and strong,
has amazing facets that
continue to be revealed.
This once broken heart opens
so wide sometimes that it
literally feels as if all my cells uncoil
and my possibilities are endless.
The Light of Love penetrates further in
and emanates further out.
Whether in this home we shared,
or other places I know not where,
it’s wonderful to know that
even though you are gone,
there is a spot for me.

Sarah Carlson

December 31, 2017